Tag Archives: Forgive

FORGIVENESS

5 Apr

For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you: Matthew 6:14

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There’s a fire deep inside,

That spreads,

That dwindles,

That spreads.

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No one else can see it,

No one else can feel it,

But it eats like a canker,

Into my peace.

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Someone set the fuel in place,

Another provided the spark,

But I set the flame,

I keep it alive.

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It isn’t a warming thing,

Based on love,

Although it replaced love,

A long time ago.

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It is a burning thing,

Based on hate,

I can’t let go of,

I won’t let go.

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And though I know,

Others can sense it,

Others shy from it,

I am the only one,

Who truly suffers.

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As much as I want,

To be free of this sin,

It beckons me back,

It calls me friend.

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It keeps me from growth,

It harnesses my joy,

It alters my path,

It chains me to me.

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Lord, help me forgive,

The pains of the past,

That I might have freedom,

To live.

 

 

Written 6/26/98

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FOR GRANTED

5 Apr

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“The Lord liveth; and blessed be my rock; and let the God of my salvation be exalted.”  Psalm 18:46

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Have I taken you for granted, Lord?

Can You forgive me?

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Do you understand the pain of Circumstance,

That clouds reason.

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You patiently wait as I blame you,

For events You had nothing to do with.

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You sing to me songs of Love,

When I feel the depths of worthlessness.

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You send me tender arms,

When I feel unloved and unlovable.

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You send me songs of joy,

When tears steal my night.

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You wake me with a tender caress,

Inviting me to intimate times with You.

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You speak into my life the words of strength,

Courage and wisdom,

As I open the pages of Your Word.

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You fill my mouth with the tongues of Angels,

A private language that only we understand.

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Lord, do I take you for granted?

Will you forgive me.

Written 6/15/2002

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CONFESSION

4 Apr

“For thou, Lord, art good, and ready to forgive; and plenteous in mercy

unto all them that call upon thee.” Psalm 86:5

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Forgive me, Lord, for my doubts.

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Forgive me, Lord, in my pain and fatigue,

Your voice was distant and faint,

I thought You didn’t care.

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Forgive me, Lord, I forgot the blessings,

Of yesterday in the crisis,

Of today.

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Forgive me, Lord, for not recognizing,

How very precious I am to You,

You showed me again and again,

Buy my self-esteem couldn’t receive it.

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Thank you, Lord, for continually calling my name,

Calling louder and louder,

When my ears were turned away.

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Thank you, Lord, for the friends and warriors,

That You sent to my side,

When I was to weak to fight.

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Thank you, Lord, for forced rest,

When my body was in desperate need,

But I refused to rest.

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Thank you, Lord, that I am Your daughter,

And You are my Father,

And nothing can ever change that.

 

Written 6-14-2002

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I FORGIVE

22 Dec

 

“The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee.” Jeremiah 31:3

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Someone carelessly speaks words of pain,

Showering down and restoring old wounds.

My mind submits to you, Lord,

I forgive and reach out in love.

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But my heart slips deep into a void,

Refusing to listen,

Refusing to obey,

Reuniting the moment with the pain,

Over and Over.

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I struggle with an inner battle,

Back and forth,

Praying that my heart

Will melt in obedience,

Releasing the hurt inside.

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I fast and pray,

Lord, show me the way.

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My own shortcomings,

Rise up before me.

My spirit grieves,

Was I forgiven?

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How could I,

Forgiven for such as these,

Not forgive.

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How could I,

Loved, in spite of my shame,

Not love.

 

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Written 5/11/95

 

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