I FORGIVE

“The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee.” Jeremiah 31:3

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Someone carelessly speaks words of pain,

Showering down and restoring old wounds.

My mind submits to you, Lord,

I forgive and reach out in love.

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But my heart slips deep into a void,

Refusing to listen,

Refusing to obey,

Reuniting the moment with the pain,

Over and Over.

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I struggle with an inner battle,

Back and forth,

Praying that my heart

Will melt in obedience,

Releasing the hurt inside.

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I fast and pray,

Lord, show me the way.

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My own shortcomings,

Rise up before me.

My spirit grieves,

Was I forgiven?

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How could I,

Forgiven for such as these,

Not forgive.

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How could I,

Loved, in spite of my shame,

Not love.

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Written 5/11/95

Tags: Battle, Forgive, Forgiven, Grieve, Love, Pain, Pray, Shame, Shortcomings, Wounds